ugh I’m literally so depressed I could cry. I really wanted to see Arian this weekend. It’s so hard having one of your best friends training to be a marine when you can never see them. We were supposed to see each other tonight because he’s leaving at 4AM and now we can’t. We ran out of time. & we’re both upset. So unbelievably upset.
Now I have to wait another two weeks and I know it doesn’t sound like that long but it is when I really have not seen him in months.
So i mean, now I’m just gonna sulk and maybe take a walk later.
My biggest thing too is that I was looking forward for real one on one time with him. You know how frustrating it is when you finally have a guy in your life who actually wants to spend time with you, not just hit it? EVERY SINGLE GUY I chill with on the regular wants to hit it. Yes, sometimes I want it, I’ll be honest. But holy shit it’s like sometimes, can you just back the fuck up? Ugh I can’t even I’m really sad.